Teary Eyes Seeking the Sun

6.8.2025

“There is a distance between learning someone’s opinions and burning them alive.”

What is my relationship with the lauding or condemnation of queerness? Why celebrate it? Why laud it? I simply am. I seek passivity, I seek unblinking recognition. I seek cool curiosity and a desire to learn in others.

Thanks? Am I brave? I shouldn’t have to be. Maybe the true experience is the anticlimax of begin myself. Am I much happier? I’m back to the usual doldrums. A slightly gayer drifting in space.

When would I have become what I am? I am the act of becoming. How could I earn the staff and raiment? I am so lost. I am the act of being lost. I am teary eyes, seeking the sun.

This feeling never goes way. It will be mine forever.