loneliness
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Not For Lack of Trying
What can I say to you monsters? Who could I possibly save? I am submerged and anyone that I pull to me will die. Save yourselves? You can’t. You can’t. Can I feel love when all…
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A Blind Warrior
I am witness to a numb, dull golem who acts without understanding. This companion of my memories is mute to me, his thoughts sit outside of him. He is empty of breath. I press water from…
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Not Before Suffering
I think of my body often, and its miraculous persistence in conducting my existence. I think of of humankind groping for perfection as defined by itself. The farce of justice. The emptiness of empathy to the…
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Teary Eyes Seeking the Sun
6.8.2025 “There is a distance between learning someone’s opinions and burning them alive.” What is my relationship with the lauding or condemnation of queerness? Why celebrate it? Why laud it? I simply am. I seek passivity,…
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Carrying the Flag
5/22/2025 I am suddenly struck with the overwhelming vision of a lifetime reading the scriptures and the thoughts of mystics from all wisdoms, with my love beside me. What a joyful life it would be to…
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Here for Turkey
5/4/2025 In the woods, I think of my love in the way I assume old warriors longed for comfort when they wrote songs about returning home to beer and women. The magic of these forests, and…
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Tasting the Sky
4/28/2025 I drift in a purgatory which changes shapes when I press my fingers into the stones which abound.And when I fold them into more interesting formsthe colours in the sky respond in kind to brighten…
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I Cannot Feel
3/19/2025 When I envision myself, it is with a pane of glass between me and the world. When I conceive of divinity as it exists for myself, it is a voiceless being.Who commands respect through its…
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New Crimson Nativities
3/13/2025 Bring me poets with broken hearts. Bring me songbirds that feel this biting air as I do.Bring me the wines gone sour, the stale bread.I cherish it all the same.I am the king of the…
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Pondering a Surprise of Love
1/28/2025 I have earned my life through virtue of having lived it.I have “earned” delights in the same way that I will have earned the sufferings to come.I am bound unmoving to the tumultuous present moment.I…
