suffering
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Take From Me
In the low hum of my home, I hear footsteps. I watch the crack of my door for roaches and crickets. I stare at the dark parts of the house when I move past them. I…
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A Distant Spring
The culling of my heart draws near with autumn, and the pain arrives gently with the first signs of death. These broad and storied leaves, these dutiful flowers, have spent their worth in service of another…
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On Writing
Edited from excerpts of 12/7/23 – Continued Thoughts on Learning What a painful and inefficient way to grow and learn it is, to be corrected by a faceless, general audience. And this is my lot because…
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A Chance Encounter
We spoke of things which I knew, and I knew everything that we discussed. Only the perspective was new. Yet afterward it was as though I understood the depth of what I knew. The ground opened…
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Dew of My Heart
I would like to become a wise old man And I listen and seek experience, to help me become wise But I feel like I am holding my head inside of a raging fire, and bringing…
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Litany on Potential
Potential is not the metric of a life in this moment. It is always beyond, always ahead. There is no end in sight to my potential, or to anyone’s. My life will not be the end…
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Grey Hairs
One should refrain from practicing philosophy until one has grey hairs. By the same nature as evolution, self-importance, acceptance of fate, self-delusion and valuation of the status quo are the tenets of worthless old men, all…
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April
I wake up angry these days. The good times come and go, and the bad times are worse as they come. I can feel myself getting older, and every new bout of depression carries the weight…
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The Death of Hope
From 11/27/23 – On The Internet “I want to collect milestones in my personal growth, but I don’t want to face the embarrassment at having held an opinion that I’ve since grown from. I want to…
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Damned to Hell the Man Who Lives in Fear
Damned to Hell the man who lives in fear, the heart of whose fear is the core of himself, and whose primacy reigns to lash out at the source of his fear, sources drawn from a…
Sanctity and Constraint 