Journal
Meta and personal writing
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Safe and Cold and Alone
Excerpts from journals dated 2/18/25 and 3/2/25 I feel alone and hunted. I feel disheveled and ungrounded. I am no longer home; I am in a den that reeks of panicked sweat where I fail to…
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A Light from Dark Shores
I don’t understand what has happened to me in the last few days. I feel like I’ve been tumbled in freezing water and dropped into place. My arms feel week, my chest is aching, I feel…
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On Shark-Fins
I have this feeling like I am on the cusp of some greater understanding, and that I need an extended period of rumination to bring it forth. I have collected the story of Christ as it…
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April
I wake up angry these days. The good times come and go, and the bad times are worse as they come. I can feel myself getting older, and every new bout of depression carries the weight…
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Paprika
Edited from “8/18/23 – On Paprika” My exile continues, by no efforts of my own to leave it. I’ve started reading again, somewhat, but Kafka is not the sort of voice that might assuage this feeling.…
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She Hopes For Me
She is perpetually misunderstood, I think, by most people because they only ever see the bad days – or they’re more sensitive to it. Jonathan Haidt talks about how one bad experience is as effective as…
Sanctity and Constraint 