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Carrying the Flag
5/22/2025 I am suddenly struck with the overwhelming vision of a lifetime reading the scriptures and the thoughts of mystics from all wisdoms, with my love beside me. What a joyful life it would be to…
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On Dorian Gray
5/19/2025 This time in my life, which has focused on my youth, aging, life goals, morality, the sensations my freedom might achieve, and sexuality, make for a reflective reading of Dorian Gray, and I admit I…
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Thoughts on Procreation
2/12/25 Am I in a place to determine that I would withhold this world from another soul, for which I am responsible? I am not responsible for any soul, let alone that of a child of…
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Pondering a Surprise of Love
1/28/2025 I have earned my life through virtue of having lived it.I have “earned” delights in the same way that I will have earned the sufferings to come.I am bound unmoving to the tumultuous present moment.I…
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Safe and Cold and Alone
Excerpts from journals dated 2/18/25 and 3/2/25 I feel alone and hunted. I feel disheveled and ungrounded. I am no longer home; I am in a den that reeks of panicked sweat where I fail to…
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A Light from Dark Shores
I don’t understand what has happened to me in the last few days. I feel like I’ve been tumbled in freezing water and dropped into place. My arms feel week, my chest is aching, I feel…
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Flowers for Everyone
9/2/23 Charlie, I wanted to start by thanking you for everything you’ve done for me. Besides the treatment and therapy, you know by now that you’ve been the closest thing to a friend to me for…
Sanctity and Constraint 