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Safe and Cold and Alone
Excerpts from journals dated 2/18/25 and 3/2/25 I feel alone and hunted. I feel disheveled and ungrounded. I am no longer home; I am in a den that reeks of panicked sweat where I fail to…
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A Nebulous Terror
How can I begin to uproot this nebulous terror which has engulfed me so gently that I hadn’t felt it until it had strangled all of the hope and joy from this great period of rebirth?…
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Behold the Man
There is something lurking which means me no harm, but wants to see me. It is the unknown demand of the future, the stage. It is the audience and cameras which demand a performance- the performance…
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To the Wall, Nonetheless
When we were young together, Harry, Alice and I were entered into a play. I suppose it was something for the school, or at least I don’t recall having volunteered to join. But there we were,…
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On Shark-Fins
I have this feeling like I am on the cusp of some greater understanding, and that I need an extended period of rumination to bring it forth. I have collected the story of Christ as it…
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On Writing
Edited from excerpts of 12/7/23 – Continued Thoughts on Learning What a painful and inefficient way to grow and learn it is, to be corrected by a faceless, general audience. And this is my lot because…
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On The Soul
1/12/23 – On The Soul One major philosophical concept: that of the Soul. Or rather, what has been described by some as the soul, the self, the “I that I am”: a singular, indivisible, atomic center…
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Flowers for Everyone
9/2/23 Charlie, I wanted to start by thanking you for everything you’ve done for me. Besides the treatment and therapy, you know by now that you’ve been the closest thing to a friend to me for…
Sanctity and Constraint 