philosophy
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Safe and Cold and Alone
Excerpts from journals dated 2/18/25 and 3/2/25 I feel alone and hunted. I feel disheveled and ungrounded. I am no longer home; I am in a den that reeks of panicked sweat where I fail to…
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Blind Commitment
When there is no right or wrong answer, there is only convenience and investment. A particularly free spirit could accommodate their own tendency to step off the plane of the world, pursuing a song true to…
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Manifestation and Freedom
Edited from “1/2/24 – Manifestation and Freedom” Eckhart Tolle describes an aphorism taken from the teachings of Jesus to describe a religious form of manifestation: “If you pray for something, believe that you have already been…
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To the Wall, Nonetheless
When we were young together, Harry, Alice and I were entered into a play. I suppose it was something for the school, or at least I don’t recall having volunteered to join. But there we were,…
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On Panprotopsychism
From “12/9/23 – Pan-protopsychism” Below are three assumptions of the nature of consciousness which this exercise considers fundamental: Consciousness exists thus: When a system incorporates the structure of the system itself in handling and responding to…
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On Shark-Fins
I have this feeling like I am on the cusp of some greater understanding, and that I need an extended period of rumination to bring it forth. I have collected the story of Christ as it…
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On Writing
Edited from excerpts of 12/7/23 – Continued Thoughts on Learning What a painful and inefficient way to grow and learn it is, to be corrected by a faceless, general audience. And this is my lot because…
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A Personal God
Hands to the sun, Held aloft by one wrist. An invisible thread leading into the sky. A lonely stone idol in a beautiful forest clearing, with cold water running nearby. White cloth and gold trim, a…
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Dew of My Heart
I would like to become a wise old man And I listen and seek experience, to help me become wise But I feel like I am holding my head inside of a raging fire, and bringing…
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Litany on Potential
Potential is not the metric of a life in this moment. It is always beyond, always ahead. There is no end in sight to my potential, or to anyone’s. My life will not be the end…
Sanctity and Constraint 