suffering
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Thoughts on Salvation Theories
From “Thoughts on Salvation Theories” 07/02/2025 The concept of redemption as defined originally, in redeeming the firstborn of a woman through the sacrifice of another animal, lends itself to the title for Jesus Christ as “The…
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Safe and Cold and Alone
Excerpts from journals dated 2/18/25 and 3/2/25 I feel alone and hunted. I feel disheveled and ungrounded. I am no longer home; I am in a den that reeks of panicked sweat where I fail to…
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A Light from Dark Shores
I don’t understand what has happened to me in the last few days. I feel like I’ve been tumbled in freezing water and dropped into place. My arms feel week, my chest is aching, I feel…
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A Nebulous Terror
How can I begin to uproot this nebulous terror which has engulfed me so gently that I hadn’t felt it until it had strangled all of the hope and joy from this great period of rebirth?…
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Behold the Man
There is something lurking which means me no harm, but wants to see me. It is the unknown demand of the future, the stage. It is the audience and cameras which demand a performance- the performance…
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Blind Commitment
When there is no right or wrong answer, there is only convenience and investment. A particularly free spirit could accommodate their own tendency to step off the plane of the world, pursuing a song true to…
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A Trick of the Light
It is easier to forgive myself for giving up hope than for struggling to find the words to wish it farewell. I would sooner be a poet than a living thing. Still, I breathe. I want…
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Take From Me
In the low hum of my home, I hear footsteps. I watch the crack of my door for roaches and crickets. I stare at the dark parts of the house when I move past them. I…
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A Distant Spring
The culling of my heart draws near with autumn, and the pain arrives gently with the first signs of death. These broad and storied leaves, these dutiful flowers, have spent their worth in service of another…
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On Writing
Edited from excerpts of 12/7/23 – Continued Thoughts on Learning What a painful and inefficient way to grow and learn it is, to be corrected by a faceless, general audience. And this is my lot because…
Sanctity and Constraint 